i get knocked down, but i get up again.
February 02, 2012sometimes life surprises you.
& let's be honest, it's hard. really hard.
especially when you weren't entirely ready for the surprise that was to come.
but i'm strong.
lots of things have happened this school year. lots of hard things. many tears have been shed & probably even more prayers said. but looking back, i wouldn't take back one of my struggles because they have helped me grow in ways i would otherwise have been incapable of. Even right now when i'm in the middle of a big struggle, i find peace i knowing that this will help me be better. i find peace in knowing that Christ, who has become my best friend, will listen to me cry, and vent, and talk about unimportant things. He's patient with me, because He knows what He's doing...& He loves me. Even when i sit around sometimes and feel like no one could possibly love imperfect me. He does. & what a beautiful concept that is.
No one loves to suffer. but i'm taking purpose in why i'm suffering right now, and letting it power me ahead. because even though i don't quite understand the reasoning behind everything, i know that this will help me. I have a weird sense of faith & hope right now. It's so strong, & it's nothing like i've ever felt before.
maybe this is what it feels like when faith overcomes your fear?
whatever it is, it's the best feeling in the world. knowing that even though life's not perfect, it's going to be okay.
someone who i adore once said to me (i know it's really a quote from a general authority..) "come what may, & love it."
& that's what i'm going to do right now.
starting now.
0 ounces of lovin'