alright, this blog post is taking a deep dive to the innermost part of my soul, brace yourselves. it's what blogs are for right?

do you know what it feels like to be in a room surrounded by people, people you may or may not know, & still feel alone? i do.

do you know what it feels like to constantly be left behind by people who hold above most? i do.

do you know what it feels like to allow yourself to be so low that the only place you have to go is up? i do.

do you know what it feels like to have people "know" you, but have no one that really knows you? i do.

do you know what it feels like to be in love with someone? i do.

do you know what it feels like to fall out of love with someone? i do.

do you know what it feels like being judged by your age, yet knowing in your soul you've experienced things most girls your age don't? i do.

do you know what it feels like to find someone who you can talk to about nearly ANYTHING, for them to stop being your friend? i do.

do you know what it feels like to watch someone you love, hate themselves? i do.

do you know what it feels like being trapped, whether by a relationship, or by a lack of motivation? i do.

do you know what it feels like to be set apart as different, & not in a good way? i do.

do you know what it feels like to feel like no one is listening? i do.

do you know what it feels like to be so scared to open yourself up, to let others in, because in the past, people have shown they don't care once you do? i do.

do you know what it feels like to have your heart be healed? i do.
and you want to know why? because out of all of these nondescript trials i have named off, the answer to each of them could also be, "Christ does."

i'm so grateful for my Savior...seriously. He is my best friend. & even though i have moments where i'm incredibly lonely, or i think that there must be something wrong with me, it's especially in those moments i feel His loving arms around me telling me "it's all going to be okay, I promise." & i've come to know that He NEVER breaks his promises. it feels great to be so loved by a Father in Heaven & his Son. He is my rock and my foundation..so even when everything else gets destroyed, i am capable of building it all back up--and building it better--by a means of Him. i am lucky.

much love.