2012, yo.
December 31, 2011to be honest? i'm scared of 2012. extremely excited, but scared for the many big choices i'm going to have to make in this upcoming year. i suppose anxious is the better term for it. many good things are going to happen in this new year {i've been preparing for this year for quite a while now}. what i'm mostly scared about? change. change has always been something that has been hard for me. i know it's essential and good in the long run, but it is still always scary to me.
UNAVOIDABLE CHANGES 2012 WILL BRING:
1. my parents are moving, the house i've lived in my whole life is now going to be occupied by some unknown youngsters. where will i go to when i'm "visiting home" for the weekend? it's still a mystery to my family.
2. i'm staying up in logan for the summer. which i feel will be mostly a good thing. i'll earn lots of $$ at my job, and get further along in school. i'm just scared out of my mind though to leave pineview. i've met some of the most amazing people ever. it's going to be a new experience living with different people, in a different ward, not being able to just walk across the hall to be greeted by some of my best friends. i know i'll make friends wherever i go, but sometimes...i wish things could stay the same because it's brought much enjoyment to my life...but you can't become better by sitting in the same spot soaking it all in, unfortunately.
3. the unknown. which is always scary. not knowing all of the many things that i'm going to be tested with in this upcoming year is both nice and scary. i'm sure there will be many changes to come that i can't predict that are also unavoidable. but i'll take them with full courage in hopes that they will help me be a better person.
MY PERSONAL CHANGES FOR 2012:
1. temple=i need to go as often as i can. to be honest, i'm aiming for once a week in this upcoming semester.
2. obviously the typical "be healthier" thing that is a recurring new years resolution for almost everyone.
3. GET MORE SLEEP! i feel a ton happier when i get more sleep.
4. devote more of my time to my studies {my chemistry class is going to kill me if i don't.}
5. find a new hobby. i love trying new things, so i want to find some other skill i can develop for 2012 to entertain me, even if it's just temporary.
6. let it be=i've developed a pattern of worrying in life. i really dislike it. i worry about the future way too much, which i think some worrying is alright, but i've crossed that line a few times. i need to just coast more in life and see where it takes me, rather than worry so much about those moments i can't control in the upcoming future. so i guess what i'm saying is that i need to trust in the Lord more that wherever i end up is part of His perfect plan, even if it's not always the easiest route, or the one i have planned in my head.
there are just a few of my so-called "resolutions" for 2012. let's hope i can be dedicated to these ones...i can't even remember mine from last year...oh well, bring it on 2012. i'm ready for whatever adventures you may bring.
much love.
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